So, the plans were simple. Post-bar, there would be a party, a day off, a party, a bubbly brunch, and back to SF.
There was a post-bar party - which was great. And a good day off as well. Then on the way to the next party, my car turned wheels up in the middle of the street, at night, with no lights. It was FANtastic, let me tell you. I hoped against hope that it was just a battery thing, but no.
Guess who's the proud owner of a new alternator and battery? THIS girl, right here. Fan-f*cking-tastic.
Brunch was fully of bubbles today, though.
At any rate, I'm going to do my best to get back to San Francisco with all my cylinders intact and then be both efficient and relaxed while I'm there just long enough to get my messy belongings under control and myself packed and down to LA to spend time with the fam before leaving for Europe.
if this site gets jettisoned now or after the results come back. I think those are two, too narrow options. Plus, I don't like to think of jettisoning any of my writing. And the net never forgets anyway, so it'd always be cached somewhere (which is very scary, yes). This site will be around for awhile, but I would guess at this point that it will be all but silent except for infrequent law/bar related updates. There may be more Spawn of Phoblog launched soon. Or there might not.
In the meantime, here are some questions I'd love not to answer anymore. Others who have taken the bar or faced similar challenges will understand why I say this. I don't want to be a bitch about it, no slinking off murmuring "I vant to be alone." But I would guess everyone hits these transition points wishing they had a tear-off pad on their chests that would give inquisitors the highlights. Here, then, are the answers to the top 5 questions I don't feel like answering anymore. Because there are no answers:
1.) I felt good about the exam. As good as you can after you block out the MBE. I felt good enough about enough essays and PTs that, should I fail the bar based on my performance on two essays - or even just one essay - I will be crushed because all that hard work and possible accomplishment on the others was for nothing and will mean nothing at all. On the other hand, should I fail outright on many essays and the MBEs, I will be equally crushed because it felt okay and if it felt okay and I got mostly questions that felt strong to me, then what happens when they seem hard. I don't want to fail. I don't want to do it again. So don't ask how it went, because you'll find out when I do, give or take a few days.
2.) I don't have a job and I don't know what I'm doing. I believe I will return to Sacramento and look for work like I used to do, because it made me happy and life is too short and too uncertain to waste time doing what you think you "should" be doing. And yes, I am living in a bubble of my own creation in which I come home and get a job in short order because that's the way it's going to have to work. It just has to. Student loans start coming due in June.
3.) I don't know. I'm going and we'll see. As with points 1 and 2, this is out of my control.
4.) Yes, I'm going for that long. I know it's unnatural for Americans, but seriously, don't you wish we operated that way? I do.
5.) Phoblographer* will still exist. As for this site, it will stay up until the bar process is complete and then we'll figure out what might happen to it next. And, by way of a teaser, in the words of a great old Jedi: there is another . . . .